So my body decided that AJ needed to come 3 weeks early. I made an appointment to see my OBGYN thinking that I was going to get a prescription and be back to work in the afternoon, but that was not the case. While at the Dr. she tells me to go over to triage to check things out. I walk over to the hospital while calling my husband and then about an hour later I am in labor and delivery. To say we were not ready is an understatement. Both my husband and I have our cars in every parking lot but the hospital lot and my overnight bag, well let's just say I was going to pack it that weekend. Next time I will listen about packing the bag early and putting in the car. And my whole natural birth plan went out the window as well. The epidural needed to be put in as soon as we checked in because of my platelet count. That is why I said in my previous post be sure to keep an open mind. After 24 hours of inducing my labor with no luck the decision was made to get a C-section. Everything went fine during the c-section and a healthy AJ was born.
Physical recovery from my C-section was great. But emotionally I felt like I was a little out of control and overwhelmed. I did not like how I was feeling and almost was a little embarassed about it because of my expectation that I would be loving every minute of motherhood. I laughed with the nurse at my 2 week check up that I was sure I had a red flag that said watch this one. This is a good thing though. And because I did my best to let people around me know that I was a little emotionally unstable I feel like maybe I recovered quicker. I will say I still had some crying outbursts even a few weeks into motherhood. I did not love motherhood right when AJ was born or even the next few weeks. It took me awhile to adjust to the huge life change, but I can say now almost four months into it now I do love being a mom.
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